I'm sitting here in my quiet house (kids asleep, Blake on call) and counting down the days until school starts. 25 days for Lane, 32 days for Paige. Yes, I had one of those days. I argued with the kids, they argued with me and of course, they argued with each other. I think that their ears have closed over and can't hear anymore. Important things like "Unwrap your arms from around her neck, she can't breath" or "Stop swinging each other around the store, people are trying to walk". So of course this leads to our heart-to-heart talk in the car with me screaming into the rear-view mirror (I'm pretty good at driving without actually looking out the front window) and taking away the Playstation, Wii, computer, TV, and anything else that requires electricity. So after a morning like that, an afternoon at the park, and an evening of apologizing and giving hugs and kisses, I'm tuckered out. I love being a mom but there are days that I feel like I'm doing it all wrong. I read the August Ensign article "Love, Limits, and Latitude". They make parenting sound so simple and straight forward. Maybe it wasn't a good idea to read it on the kind of day I had. I like the last section of "Seeking the Lord's Assistance". I know that many of my prayers consist of a plea that I don't mess them up because of my imperfections and mistakes. I told Lane tonight that I wasn't perfect and that I was learning on how to be a mommy. His reply was "I know mommy, it makes me laugh sometimes." I'm glad I can be comic relief for him but even more I'm glad that I don't have to be perfect and neither does anyone else. I did tell Lane that when we pray and say "sorry" it makes it all better because of Jesus. I guess if Blake and I have more moments like that and not the "yelling in the rear-view mirror" moments we may be okay in the end.